It is birthday season here at the Fullweiler House where we have a lot of birthdays in a row

And this is a season of failure for me. This is where we combine

Everything in the world that I am not good at and it just seems like every time there's a new birthday that rolls around I realize how bad I am at all of this on a new level and it has led me to

eventually get to a place of a fair amount of peace and freedom with this subject that I will share with you.

Let me start by saying first of all parties.

Kid birthday parties. I can't do it and this is I think this is because of my own issues I was an only child moved around a lot never had

Community or friends or those other things so I lie awake at night when I think of planning a kid

birthday party and I imagine nobody showing up and my kid sitting there and

the people not showing up for the party, the level of anxiety that

instills in me cannot possibly be overstated. And I recognize that this is an area of life, this is my issues,

but it fills me with so much anxiety. I wish someone would start a service where you could rent friends. A child actor service

where I could say, look, I need a guarantee that we'll have five kids, three two boys about this age and okay this

wouldn't work for older kids it's not gonna work with your 15 year old but

you're a four year old you could be oh, you don't remember them from, yeah, from Pre-K. Yeah, yeah, this is Bob. And they'd be like,

my name's not Bob. He'd be like, shut up and paying you like just your Bob.

No bad ideas and brainstorming.

So parties fill me with an extreme level of anxiety.

Now when it comes to gifts, that's just an area. extreme level of anxiety.

Now when it comes to gifts, that's just an area I'm terrible out at.

I don't have a ton of anxiety.

I'm just, I'm so horrible at gifts.

I'm so bad when it comes to gifts. I'm not even a good gift receiver.

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