I'm sorry, this is so late. I meant to do this sooner, but I've been extremely busy.

I know that's a terrible excuse.

Anyways, I miss you, and we should climb soon together in the desert.

And yeah, here I go.

As a climber, I have struggled with the image of myself as a partner.

My biggest issue was that I never felt like I was good enough for anybody,

regardless of how hard you climbed or however much stoke you had or anything like that.

I just, I never felt like I was enough.

Anytime someone new offered to

climb with me was always insanely hesitant. I was beyond shy. I just, I couldn't bring myself to

climb with somebody new in a personal partner by partner setting. In the end, I learned to

overcome that because no one gives a shit how red you are.

All you can do in this world is just be the best partner you can for anybody else.

I still struggle with it day to day, but really what it comes down to is when you're adventuring outside,

you need to have a partner and to be the best partner that you can be for somebody else

is something huge for me. Thinking back on my days of climbing and, you know, skiing and adventuring

in general, some of my happiest moments undoubtedly are on top. You know, you get to the top of a

route, a pitch, a tour, and you look around you and you're just, you're so stunned.

Everything is amazing. Life is beautiful that day.

But I've come to realize that, you know, you get to the top of something and you're at the pinnacle, but you still have to get down.

And for myself, I've come to realize that

my favorite times are, you know, when you finally get back to the ground or to the car and

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