Tetragrammaton.

Tetragrammaton.

I did have like my past lives, this whole past life thing, where they do your past life.

It's Shirley McLean was a friend of mine and she was like, she made me go to New Mexico

and I did this for like five days.

And like the past lives are all about like like so much of it is about how you died

like how each at least this is what this one thing was like and how much how you end it has to do with what

you're still dealing with and that like it like the end is important and like and in fact like

in this this i mean i'm not i'm not co-signing on this but i but this was just the philosophy was that

like you know they used light some kind of like color therapy or whatever so that like

you remember the death and then like you think of a color and then the color somehow heals

or like somehow it provides some kind of catharsis so that then that death is sort of lifted

off of you so you're not like still dealing with the fallout from the death or whatever so it's

just yeah i mean whether you believe that or, it's just like as a storyteller,

it makes sense that, like, you know, you're always trying to figure out what is the satisfying

ending for your story? Like, what is the conclusion? And you think about life as this journey to

death. I want for my friends and I want for my family and I want for myself a cushy,

like a, you know, like a soft landing.

I don't want to, you know, it's like as you get older and you experience more people

dying, there's very few deaths that aren't kind of grim or that, you know you go through the process of dying is also

it's a part you know it's it's it's about loss you lose things along the way i mean especially when

you're young and healthy you look at that and be like oh my god this is like so depressing do you

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