Mikayla Matthews: Finding Her Voice
The Squeeze
Taylor Lautner
4.6 • 1.3K Ratings
🗓️ 21 May 2025
⏱️ 79 minutes
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Summary
TW: Sexual Abuse
In this week’s episode, Tay is back for another girl-talk conversation with The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives star Mikayla Matthews! Mikayla bravely opens up about growing up in a chaotic home as one of seven siblings, navigating childhood trauma, and the sexual abuse she endured starting at age six. She shares how the aftermath of that trauma still affects her marriage today and the therapy, tools, and self-awareness that have helped her begin to heal. Mikayla talks about becoming pregnant at 16, what happened when she finally told her mom the truth, and where their relationship stands today. She also reflects on how her skin struggles impacted her self-worth, the importance of learning each other’s love languages in a relationship, and how she and her husband continue to support one another. Mikayla touches on her thoughts on fellow The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives star Whitney Leavitt’s appearance on the podcast, then shares what she’s most proud of in herself: becoming the person she needed when she was young.
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| 0:00.0 | The following podcast is a Dear Media production. |
| 0:03.1 | You've never opened up like this before. |
| 0:05.1 | I just associated it with the shame. |
| 0:07.9 | I've actually blocked out a lot of my childhood, |
| 0:10.4 | but I don't remember a lot of, like, happy memories. |
| 0:14.2 | My mom's boyfriend came in the picture. |
| 0:16.4 | We were just, like, really uncomfortable around him. |
| 0:18.2 | I don't know if he was touchy to everyone. |
| 0:19.3 | He was definitely touchy to, like, uncomfortable around him. I don't know if he was touchy to everyone. He was definitely touchy to like me. Yeah. Like I didn't quite get it and I was still pretty young. My mom wanted to |
| 0:26.2 | get married and he was going to move into our house. At this point she hadn't like known anything. |
| 0:30.4 | Basically I never had that safe place or felt comfortable telling her things. She kind of like |
| 0:34.5 | worked late and early and so she would go to the back room and take a nap or whatever and I would be left alone with him |
| 0:40.3 | This thing that's ingrained to me of like well no one's gonna believe me |
| 0:44.0 | I finally had this courage to go to my mom and say |
| 0:47.3 | Hey, this has been happening to me instead of her doing her role as a mom and protect me in that moment |
| 0:53.0 | It was while you're lying, you can move out. |
| 0:55.9 | I had to drop out of school. |
| 0:57.3 | My chronic illness got so bad. |
| 0:59.1 | My body was almost shutting down. |
| 1:00.4 | Like I had so many infections, so many different things going on. |
| 1:04.0 | I just choose not to because it's not comfortable and it's painful. |
| 1:08.9 | The person that I needed back then, I feel like that's who I'm becoming now. |
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