I like said the professional email like you know I understand you know

But I really am disappointed that you have not acknowledged whatsoever your financial commitment to this gig you know

Like you guys were gonna pay me right like you have the money in your budget right so

Pay me

This is death sex and money

The show from WNYC about the things we think about a lot and need to talk about more

I'm in a sale

I first saw choreographer Miguel Gutierrez perform around this time last year in San Francisco

He was presenting a piece called unsustainable solutions

Duet with my dad dad a solo dance where he interacts with video recordings of his late father who died last year

The piece ends with the audience lights up and Miguel's staring into the eyes of the crowd while he screams things along to Bruce Springsteen's

Downbound train

I heard your voice you're a crime crime you were so long

You said you knew that never

I've thought about that piece a lot since it's anger and grief

That performance was also one of the last times that Miguel was on stage

All of his onstage gigs since March have been canceled and when we talked over FaceTime. I asked how that's felt

In very honest terms my first feeling is one of relief. Oh, interesting

You know performing for me is not necessarily the romance that I think so many people make it out to be it's like a

It feels like a necessary component of the work, but it's not always the most pleasant part of it

There are so many kind of components of

You know interaction that are challenging or or just like vulnerability and I

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