I started this podcast four years ago, going through old boxes of things my mom and dad and brother left behind when they died.

They're still in my basement.

It's been a while since I've tried to sort through them.

But like many of you, the pain of the past is never far away.

When I was six years old, I lost my mother.

Many of you have left voicemails from long

ago losses that still echo in your lives today. My baby brother died at birth. The griefs

affected me. 63 years ago, my four-and-a-half-year-old brother Scott died. I've been living

with grief for over 40 years. My dad died about 24 years ago, and I have never really dealt.

I realized that my brother's death keeps surfacing in my thoughts.

But underneath, there's pain that never really goes away.

As Ken Byrne said on an earlier podcast, the half-life of grief is endless.

Mariska Hargite knows that very well.

Jane Mansfield, Mickey Hargady have just left this American Airlines plane.

A huge crowd has gathered.

Mariska's mom, actress Jane Mansfield, died when she was three.

She was raised by her father, Hungarian actor and bodybuilder

Mickey Hargitay.

Today, she was signed to a long-term movie contract by 20th century fuck. At the moment, she is also

the most photographed woman in show business. Jane Mansfield was killed in a car crash in

1967. Mariska was in the car with her. In her 20s, she discovered Mickey Hargatay was not her

biological father, an Italian singer Nelson Sardelli was. After decades spent coming to terms with

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