It was a total 180 from just literally a few months ago where I'd walk through a grocery store

and people would say, hey, that's Mantitello. That's the All-American. He's my hero. That's

my favorite player. That's my inspiration and ask me for autographs and pictures. I would

be happy to do so. Then all of a sudden, it just of 180 flips and is like, that's Mantitello,

that's the fool. That's the guy that I got catfished. How could what an idiot. And I just

was like, oh my god. It's like, what do I do? How do I navigate this new room? For a long time,

I was in a whirlwind of chaos because for a while, I let the external praise get to me.

And I didn't realize how much I let it get to me until that positive reinforcement, that

positive encouragement that cheers all of a sudden became hate. And it came back in the form

of a meme or a joke. And when that happened and all of a sudden internally, I'm just screwed up.

I had to go on this journey. And the reason why I say this journey is because it's not like I

was progressing the whole time. There was times of regressing. There were times where I just

just sat there in rock bottom and just was like, man, leave me alone. But I went on this journey

of self-identity. That was purely my own. And for the first time, my own, over the course of,

I would say, three to four years after that, the only voices in my head, before when I was younger,

as my dad's voice, my grandfather's voice would help direct me in the choices that I would make.

Like, then I got to this aspect of my life. And I went on this journey to now.

The only voice I hear in my head is my own.

It's my and be all it's breakdown. She's going to break it down for you. Because you know,

she knows a thing or two. She's going to break down. It's a breakdown. She's going to break it down.

Hi, I'm my and be all I can welcome to my breakdown. This is the place to be break things down,

so you don't have to. I don't think you could break down, man. Taitao, if you try. He is a former

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