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Guaranteed Human. Yes, it's lip service. I'm Angela Yee. I'm G.G. McGuire. I'm Jordy Jor. And I'm O'Neek Samuels. Hey, girl. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, she is back. Y'all know I love Real Housewives and Potomac. So I'm glad to see you back on the show on your terms. Thank you. Yes, it feels good to be back.

Mm-hmm.

Yeah.

And your energy is like, everybody's like, she's so Zen-like now and unbothered. You know what I thought initially? I was like, when you first go on a show, you learn a lot, like in retrospect, when you are like like I should have did this and like like you said

you know how you react is how you react but you have to kind of like learn how to I guess you know

come across the way you you are you know it was it was interesting because I was so emotionally

wired and I was also not as emotionally

intelligent as I thought I was.

And I had so much on my plate that adding reality TV into it at that time, I just didn't

see it coming.

And I really needed to take a step back and just like, I'm like, who am I?

Like, what is going on? And I thought that I had such great control over myself and my identity, but absolutely not. That's what I always said. They're going to put you in those positions. Like, where you normally in real life, you wouldn't be in that position, where they'll place you here. And they're like, go. And go. and go yeah yeah and I felt like I always had to

explain myself like I always had something to prove and I'm just like no it didn't happen like this

it happened like that and I'm in a place now where I'm so rooted in who I am after doing all the work

that I've done on myself that I don't have anything to prove to anybody and I'm actually standing

in my transparency and authenticity in a way that I don't have anything to prove to anybody. And I'm actually standing in my transparency and authenticity in a way that I won't allow any shame, judgment, or guilt put me in a place where I'm shaming myself and I'm mad at myself. It's like I'm going to live and I'm going to learn just like everybody else, you know? Oh, I love this. Yeah. And you have a I like this about. You have a book coming out, January 4th.

That's a day after my birthday.

Just putting it out there.

Yes, just putting that out there.

A Capricorn book. A Capricorn book. I love it. Love letters from versions of myself, a memoir of self-discovery, transformation, and healing. Yes. And you really did a deep dive into yourself to actually write this book.

So I know it has to be nerve-wracking to know the world is going to be really difficult. And you really did a deep dive into yourself to actually write this book.

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