Can we talk about something, like trauma bond for a second? Isn't it kind of messed up that so many of us were traumatized as kids by the idea of eternal hell? We were just trying to be good, trying to make sense of the world, but instead of being taught how to connect with love, we were taught how to fear God.

Narrow is the gate. Only 144,000 get in. By the way, is that forever or just in the end times?

Lukewarm believers will be spit out. Many are called, but few are chosen. And you start asking,

am I one of the chosen? And if I am, how do I know I'm choosing this? How does any of that even

make sense? So you try to believe hard enough. You pray the right way, you do everything you're told,

but deep down you still feel unsafe.

Still wonder if you'll be punished forever just for getting it wrong. That is not love. It's spiritual

trauma disguised as truth. And for some of us, the most liberating moment wasn't reconnecting with faith, it was

finally saying what we were never allowed to say out loud. What if Christianity, as we know it,

is a lie? Not God, not love, but the system, the fear, the manipulation, the doctrine built to control instead of connect.

And the irony is, the moment you let that crumble, you don't fall into darkness.

You find light. You find peace. You find God.

Not in a book or a building, but in the quiet truth already alive inside you.

That's what today's conversation is about.

John Rainey was a teaching pastor who spent decades inside the system until one question about eternal hell

cracked it wide open. And what followed was a complete spiritual awakening and a return to divine

love, free from fear. He's the author of Finding God, Losing God, Becoming God, and host of the

upcoming, maybe out now podcast, House of St. Rainey.

So in this episode, you'll learn how to navigate the fear and freedom of questioning your faith,

why letting go of hell might be the most spiritually honest thing you do, and a deeper perspective

on forgiveness, ego, and reclaiming your inner divinity.

Before we go deep today, I want to give you a little gift, and I want to give it to you every

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