These are my personal opinions.

Always seek a professional when you're making choices about your mental health and well-being.

So I had a thought, and it may not go anywhere, but I'm going to share it anyway.

It was regarding how we can be upset towards someone, even hate them, have negative feelings about them, and how we hold on to these negative thoughts and feelings for a long time.

Usually the person that we're upset with or at is,

not usually.

Sometimes the person is still in our life somehow.

They occupy real estate in our brain.

And so when they do that, we walk around with them. We walk around

with them in our mind and they are influencing us. They are a part of us.

And the thought came to me, and this has to do with my stepfather, because I became

apathetic toward my stepfather many, many years ago.

Abusive alcoholic, in case you haven't heard yet, those who've heard this show for years are probably like, yeah, we've heard enough about your stepfather.

But that was my upbringing.

So he played a big part, played a big role in my life and my dysfunctional behaviors and all the things I had to heal.

And so I walked around for a long time with him in my head.

I walked around with him in my brain.

And so there was a part of my brain that was dedicated to him

and all the thoughts and feelings I had about him.

And so there was a point where I had to change that because I didn't want to walk around with

that. I didn't want to walk around with hatred. I didn't want to walk around with those old feelings that I used to feel

when I lived with him. He would embarrass every family gathering. He would embarrass us at restaurants.

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