Hey guys it's Kristen and I am so excited to be back with y'all this is the first obviously video that I recorded since coming back from having a baby from having Caroline.

I just reentered the world of Girl Define and kind of getting back into things.

And I'm really excited to share my whole birth story with you guys.

And to officially, if you're watching this on YouTube, you can see a little baby here sitting

next to me, which is just so crazy.

It is so crazy.

It still blows my mind.

Every time I look at her I'm just like how?

How do I have a baby?

How do I have this little cutie?

She's gonna be with me this whole time,

so if you're listening,

you can't see her cuteness right now.

Oh, but you can hear her.

Caroline, can you say hello?

Can you say hello? Yeah. Oh, she's like all these lights, the camera. She is just so, she's such a sweetie and such a massive blessing.

I love her so much if you can't tell and as I record this Caroline

is about 14 weeks, little more than 14 weeks old and she's really tired right now. So we're going to see how this goes. There might be a lot of cuts because there might be some screams coming, but we'll see, right baby? But yeah, many of you all know the backstory for me. I've shared a lot with Zach of just our journey.

We've been married now for 13 years and our journey of infertility, recurrent miscarriage, and ultimately the diagnosis of unexplained infertility

from doctors saying, you know, we don't know why, you're not able to get pregnant or when you

do you miscarry really early on.

We don't, you know, we've done all the tests, tests we've done everything we don't really know what's going on so for us just like the dream of having a family we just never knew what that would look like and I've shared in the past just my journey of coming to places of surrender again and again of having this longing so bad for motherhood and not knowing if that would ever become a reality and really wrestling with the question if this never becomes a reality is God enough is my relationship with him enough is he what he says he is which is he is our all and all. He's the satisfaction of our souls.

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