Hello, everybody.

It's one of your top five at this point, favorite nights.

And I just want to give you a real quick heads-up, top apology.

I am sorry for anybody that I worried or just made very frustrated with my absence.

It is and has been selfish of me,

and I absolutely should have just checked in and said something like this sooner.

The truth of the matter is I'm doing it now, kind of embarrassed,

and kind of forcing myself over the, over the kind of like the hill

of like, oh my God, do you even do it?

Of shame or whatever you want to call it to actually get this up and out to Allie.

But I'm doing it because I now have, to my cynical self, evidence that, like, I've got it.

I've, like, really got it, got it.

Like, it's in my control.

Nobody else is here and now, not someday. I got it. It's right. It's

right here. And it feels strange and it feels amazing. And it means that, like, I am absolutely

starting to think in concrete terms, not abstract terms of like, well, I need to get back.

It's been so long.

But more like, okay, so here's the time frame.

Here's what we can offer by what.

And we don't promise it.

We just fucking start loading it out.

Like that kind of thing.

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