Hello, hello everybody. I'm Lexi Lombard, you host to the at Lexi podcast. If you listen to last week's episode, I was a blubbery mess. I was fresh off a trip from Virginia where I threw an event from my deceased mother and it was too much to handle and I tried to make light of it

but it wasn't a light episode which is totally fine but I proceeded to be on the

verge of a mental breakdown all of last week, but I decided a long time

ago that there are no breakdowns, only breakthroughs, and that is what I'm on the verge of and I tried so hard to put into practice my

emotional toolkit and I listen to myself. So as I said, fresh off a Virginia

trip from an event where emotions were very high for everybody.

And I am such a little sponge and such a little mirror and I

absorb it all and reflect it onto the world

which is something that I view as a weakness.

I know some people don't,

but it is something that I'd like to at least understand and be able to

control a bit more because I did feel a bit out of control when I arrived and

recorded that episode. It's probably the most nervous I've ever been to record and post an episode. It's probably the most nervous I've ever been to record and post an

episode. I tried to keep my socialization pretty low. I wanted solitude. I

had intense emotions. I was also exhausted physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally

depleted and I needed solitude. A lot of times I don't. A lot of times I don't a lot of times I need to get out be in the world

Participate in society see my friends show them love be out and about I knew deep in my bones that I needed quiet. I needed time to be, I needed time to think.

That being said, it was really important to maintain a routine of some sort.

Getting out of the house can be really hard.

Also, hygiene can be very difficult.

But if you have the ability to get out and sweat,

you won't want to get back into bed until you've showered. So I went to the rock climbing gym every single day.

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