It feels like every single trait that I have makes me adverse to rest. Resting is incredibly

challenging for me. And I know what a lot of you are thinking. Emma, how is resting hard for you?

The whole point of rest is that it's easy, that it's relaxing, that you don't even have to try.

It's just easy. It's the easiest thing you can do. It's rest. Like how could that be hard for you?

Listen, I ask myself the same thing. But when I look inward, it makes a lot of sense. I'm just not built

to rest. Every fiber of my being wants to move, wants to do things, wants to control, wants to overthink. This is just

who I am. And to be honest, it makes a lot of sense because my mom is even worse than me. She is

even more of a busy body than I am. She's constantly doing something. Now that I think about it,

though, as she's gotten older, she's learned

to rest a bit more. But my point of bringing my mom into this is that it seems it might be genetic.

Whenever I talk about this side of myself, this sort of busy body control freak, perfectionist

side of myself, I'm always a bit hesitant because I know that it can come off as

sort of a humble brag in a way. Like, oh, you guys, I just can't help it. I just get so much done

because I'm just such a busy body. Ah, I'm such a freak. I just get so much done. I'm just so

productive. I know that it can come off that way. But the truth is, is that it's not a flex. Are there

maybe some benefits to being this way? Sure. But I think ultimately it is not a pleasant way of

life. I think it leads to burnout so frequently that the productivity is actually not as productive as it seems, if that makes

sense. Like I actually don't think I end up getting any more done than somebody who maybe

doesn't possess the traits that I have. The difference being, I'm so stressed about, you know,

constantly doing things that I end up doing too much in a burst of

energy coming from a place of stress and almost like desperation. Then I exhaust myself to the point

where I can't do anything. And then that makes me feel so terrible that then I have a terrible

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