Hey guys. Welcome, welcome. We are going to dive into some stuff. We're going to do a little

storytelling. I swear, I feel like whenever I talk about this stuff, I just like reminisce on my life and I'm in shock of who I used to be, oh, God, stuff in her 20s and just completely overlooking those like obvious red flags.

Like, what the hell was wrong with me that and you know what's funny is they were just so dead on obvious

and I just didn't want to see it in my mind I was like oh they'll change or oh this will be

different or it'll get better I just didn't know to just look at someone at face value and just

think okay what if this never changes because

it's probably not going to? What do we do about this? Like I was so hung up on, and I was not a

girl that was jumping from one relationship to the next. I took my time getting to know people

and I took my time like in between relationships.

I always needed like my time after a breakup so I could just get back to me and feel like a sane

person again because, you know, when a relationship ends, it sucks. It's not fun. And, you know, we, I'm just not that kind of person

to just, like, jump from one person to the next. But I know that I have made the mistake so many

times of the red flags looking like they're not as bad as they were. And I don't even mean like extreme things. It's just like these

little things that I just overlooked and thought like it'll get better. It'll get better.

Like things will change or or it doesn't matter right now. I'm just so happy. I'm so into this.

And and oh my God, even just saying that out loud means that my bar was so

incredibly low that we were just like scraping the bottom of the barrel getting like the bare minimum.

Like, what the hell is I happy about? What was I getting in this relationship? I just didn't know me

and I didn't know relationships.

And I wasn't, I didn't know how to just like take people at face value.

I didn't know how to see people clearly because I knew that I wanted to feel something.

But when I wasn't honing in on, okay, am I getting that feeling from this person? I just,

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