Welcome back to another episode of Inside Anna's Mind. We are now on episode four. Honestly, the

response from the podcast so far have just been amazing. I know I've mentioned this over and over

again, but I almost just can't get used to it. The last episode, I covered everything on

eating disorders, body image, bulimia, whatnot, and it went really well. And now I'm kind of going on to the next chapter of my life. Now I did

mention in this episode that there was a summer that I didn't want to talk about on that podcast

and I'm actually going to start today's podcast on that. So this was the summer, my first summer

since recovery. So just for a little timeline so you know what we're talking about.

In the winter was Aruba and that was when I basically admitted or found out I had an eating disorder.

Then I went into recovery, into spring and then going into summer, the summer just before I move into London.

And this is where I can emphasize that what you see online isn't necessarily what

actually goes on. I did open up in this summer on my social media in terms of I wasn't feeling

100% great, but I didn't give it all. I knew that I wasn't necessarily struggling with my body like I

used to do, but I was struggling with something

a lot deeper. And if you listen to my previous episode, this is what I was talking about, saying

that, you know what, eating disorders is more than just not eating. It's your trauma. It's your,

it's your mental state. And just because I had gained the way and maybe stopped fearing some foods or accept weight gain a little bit more,

didn't mean I was okay. And it wasn't just going to take five months for me to be okay. From my reflection,

I think what led into this was I did a lot of therapy during recovery and in that spring time.

And there was a point where I think we were going a little

too deep into my energy systems. I had done so many sessions. I had gone on to a retreat. I was doing

master classes. And for someone who hadn't really dived into their past or their feelings or

anything like that for so many years, it was new to me. And now talking about to my therapist, she says you were supposed to go through

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