I hooked up with a rock star twice my age and now I can't stop thinking about them.

Background, I'm in my 20s, I'm fairly well established for my age with a good career,

financially independent, and I have a small degree of online fame. I'm a model so I know people

find me attractive, and I am frequently pursued by people of all ages, and I'm generally attracted

to older men. Daddy issues, I guess. I know that I can be a bit naive and overly trusting,

but I can become unhealthily attached to people. The rock star in question is part of a popular

band that has toured worldwide for years. I actually had never listened to their music prior to

seeing them at a festival, so I didn't know anything about them and wasn't really star-struck

by meeting them. The band is known for being provocative and for their playboy party personas.

By pure chance, I ended up meeting them while out of character in between shows and they invited

me to hang out with them. I didn't fully realize who they were, and the one member in particular

gave me a lot of attention off the bat. He's over twice my age and I'm only six years older than

his oldest child. I found him intentionally charming immediately, and we vived really well.

I quickly discovered that the stage persona was only 5% of the truth. By the end of the night,

and several tequila shots later, he had his hands all over me and we ended up back in his room.

Side note, I have a personal policy of not sleeping with band guys. I know there's

nothing special about it, but several other notable musicians at this festival had already tried

with me and gotten turned down. I think it was different with him because I had met him just as

a normal person and didn't know who he was. He started kissing me and things naturally progressed.

I was initially a little reluctant because we ended up hooking up and it was probably the best of my

life. He was an incredibly caring lover and afterwards we snuggled and just talked and talked

and got really deep and personal. I really got the sense that he cared for me. He told me that he

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