An A&E original podcast.

This episode contains descriptions of sexual assault and suicidal ideation.

Listener discretion is advised. He's a remorse for being caught, but not for what he did.

And I think he enjoyed what he did.

He didn't have a remorse, a remorse bone in his body at all.

I truly believe that.

In November of 1984, Lisa McVeigh Nolan was a 17-year-old living in Tampa, Florida

with her grandmother and her

grandmother's boyfriend. Tampa Florida is within Hillsborough County

jurisdiction. It's a very safe place to live today. We have your areas like any other place of your not so

safe areas but it's not a lot. It's fun here we've got the beaches here. One minute is raining, thunderstorms. Next minute it's butterflies and rainbows.

While Tampa may have been butterflies and rainbows,

Lisa's home life was anything but.

I was tired of my grandmother's boyfriend raping me over and over every day for four years.

With my grandmother's permission, my grandma would watch, she never stopped, never stopped to protect me.

Number a third, I had went to work like any other day. I was going to kill myself when I came home that night.

I was tired of being in pain.

This is I survived, the podcast where we talk to people who've lived through the worst things imaginable and all the tragic, messy, and wonderful things

that happen after survival.

I'm Caitlin Van Malt.

I worked the day shift at the donut shop. I was asked to work a double shift by my boss, which I had to get permission from my grandmother, and I ended up working at 2 o'clock in the morning is when I started running my bicycle home from work.

That was the only transportation I had at the time was a bicycle.

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