James Vanderbeek just passed away.

Okay, and for some of you guys, if you don't know who he is, for me, everybody goes to different movies. What do you go with him, by the way? Where do you go with him when you think about him? Varsity Blues. You go to Varsity Blues? What do you go? I don't want your life. What do you go, Rob? Incredible. I go to one. ever watch any of this stuff or no Dawson's Creek okay so listen let me take us about

dawson's Rob. Okay, so listen, let me tell you're into men without telling you. I honestly don't want to wait for our lives to be over. I don't want to wait. That was the song, FYI. You know what's crazy? I'm going to share this with you guys. Please don't share it with anybody. And let's just keep it in this community. I don't want anybody know this. When I was in the Army, me and these six, seven guys from our unit, we knew a couple things. In our barracks, there's two things we wouldn't miss. When Sosa and McGuire were playing, we'd be in that room watching the games, or Tuesday nights, they changed it to Wednesday, but for many years it was Tuesday night, Dawson's Creek. And we would sit there and watch this guy. It was the sickest show, but we had one code. We cannot tell anybody we watched Dawson's Creek. Okay? It's one of the things. You can brag about watching

Melrose Place, maybe even a little bit Beverly's 90210. You can't tell people you watch Dawson's Creek

and you're in a military uniform, all this other stuff. But it was an awesome show. The best part

about him is this one clip I shared where he experiences God as he's going through his.

It's such a beautiful, beautiful message to finish the podcast on.

Go ahead, Rob.

Today's my birthday.

And it has been the hardest year of my life.

And I wanted to share something that I learned with y'all.

When I was younger, I used to define myself as an actor, right?

Which was never really all that fulfilling.

And then it became a husband, and that was much better.

And then I became a father.

And that was the ultimate.

I could define myself then as a loving, capable, strong, supportive, husband,

father, provider, steward of the land that we're so lucky to live on. And for a long time,

that felt like a really good definition to the question, who am I? What am I? And then this year, I had to look my own mortality in the eye.

I had to come nose to nose with death.

And all of those definitions that I cared so deeply about were stripped for me.

I was away for treatment, so I could no longer be a husband that was helpful to my wife.

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