Good evening ladies. I hope you're all doing well. I know that I said that I was only going to do one podcast per day, but I felt very moved emotionally and spiritually to come and talk with you right now about the people please and curse and the idea of being too nice,

not having appropriate boundaries and allowing people to dictate what I do because I don't want to hurt their feelings.

So I just kind of want to talk around this. I'm not going to edit it. It's just going to be me, just kind of being

impulsive because I never do this. I don't just do anything on the spot ever. But I'm asking you ladies to do so many things that are uncomfortable and out of your

comfort zone and new. So I think I can do something different too if it's going to help someone else because I don't want anyone else.

I don't want anyone else to ever have to go through everything I've gone through because I

wanted to have a certain appearance.

Okay, so let me give myself together

and then let's talk about this. Oh, So I've been receiving comments on my videos and emails and just lots of very, very sweet words from you ladies and I'm,

when I tell you the emotions I go through when I read some of your comments. I mean, it's just mind-blowing.

What you ladies are going through and just how helpful all the stuff has been for you.

It's also been helpful for me to see some of the changes that I've gone through as a person.

And I've been getting a lot of comments saying, oh, you're perfect.

I want to be just like you and you're exactly what I mean, they're very sweet and well intended and I thank you for that but I do not want to put out a

perception that I am perfect I cannot allow you to think that because I am not perfect. I'm far from

perfect and I think that's what makes it beautiful is to understand that you can be imperfect because everyone is and still live a

meaningful life and still be able to feel joy and love and happiness in all different aspects. And the reason it's so important for me to talk about and I had to stop everything and record this is because the idea of being perfect is literally the reason for everything bad that has happened in my life,

me trying to be perfect on top of my own personality, which you all know that I've

talked about this so many of you found me from the video that I made about being too nice about how

that has been a lifelong struggle so mix being too nice with also wanting to be

perfect that is such a dangerous combination with also wanting to be perfect.

That is such a dangerous combination

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