#HURDLEMOMENT: My Experience With Depression
Hurdle with Emily Abbate
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4.9 • 1.4K Ratings
🗓️ 23 November 2022
⏱️ 34 minutes
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Summary
I'm OK. Actually, I’m more than OK. These days, my heart feels full. My light feels bright. Really bright. I feel generally happy. I feel hopeful. I feel capable.
But 10 months ago, this wasn’t the case. My light felt dim. On January 31, I called my best friend after collapsing onto my kitchen floor beside myself because a bunch of pans fell out from the cabinet. It wasn’t about the pans. It was me. I felt stuck. So stuck. Incapable of getting out of my own way. Blank. I’d sit at my computer for hours but nothing would get done. All of the strategies I’ve been using for years to help me feel good in my body felt as though they were failing me. I knew something wasn't right.
... and I was right.
On February 25, I was told by a physician in a small office on Smith Street that I was depressed. Ten months later, I’m finally ready to talk about it. My choice to go on medication. My experiences having hard conversations. Showing up when it felt almost impossible. What it felt like to ask for help. And most importantly: Finding my joy again. Why now? Because I’m in a place or homeostasis. I feel ready. I know that despite how hard this hurdle was in the moment, I am so much better for it. My hope has always been to help others feel less alone on their own individual wellness journey. And today? I pray my story, live in the feed now, does just that.
MENTIONED IN THIS EPISODE
157. Alex Silver-Fagan, Trainer & Creator of Flow Into Strong
149. Alexi Pappas, Runner, Olympian, Actor & Author
229. Kelsey Plum, WNBA Player
If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health issues, you are not alone. There are resources available to you, including the SAMHSA national hotline, at 1-800-662-HELP (4357).
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| 0:00.0 | If you can have faith that there are good things ahead of you, no matter how dark it may be |
| 0:06.9 | in the moment, then that, that is where your power lies, right? |
| 0:18.7 | Hey everybody, Emily Abadi here. You are listening to Hurtle. A while news focus podcast where I |
| 0:32.7 | connect with everyone from your favorite athletes to top experts and industry CEOs about their |
| 0:37.4 | highest highs, toughest moments, and everything in between. We all go through Hurtle's life, |
| 0:44.0 | and my goal through these discussions is to empower you to better navigate yours and move with |
| 0:49.9 | intention so that you can stride toward your own big potential and of course have some fun along |
| 0:57.8 | the way. Today I am talking about something that I have been keeping close to the best, so to speak, |
| 1:08.1 | for a really long time now. I guess to be a little bit more specific since February of this year, |
| 1:17.0 | and that is my journey navigating anxiety and depression. I knew that I wasn't going to record on |
| 1:30.3 | this or talk about this until I truly felt ready and good. I say it all the time on the show |
| 1:37.9 | it's something that Ash Wilking said to me when we sat down a few years back and it's that |
| 1:44.0 | you have to be careful that the sword you use to help others isn't the one that you fall on. |
| 1:50.4 | And for me, I can truly say that now I have come so far in my journey and I have such a deep |
| 2:00.0 | and beautiful understanding of where I'm at, where I was, the lessons that I've learned from this |
| 2:07.2 | chapter in my life and so much more and I feel truly at peace and comfortable to speak on it. |
| 2:16.1 | I also feel very purposeful in speaking on it right now. This episode originally coming out |
| 2:23.7 | Thanksgiving week and it's a time of year where we slow down and reflect a bit and think about |
| 2:31.3 | everything that's happened and I am so so so thankful to be here having this conversation |
| 2:40.2 | thinking about how far I've come and how grateful I am to be out on the other side of what was a |
| 2:48.8 | really difficult hurdle for me. I'm happy to report that these days I do genuinely for the most |
| 2:56.0 | part feel very very happy and very lucky and I want you to know that I am truly good. I'm so good. |
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