Hi guys so my question is kind of I'm wondering if you guys ever had a hard time

accepting yourself as a child and through those like unattractive like super awkward years because just like you

guys I have so much footage and pictures and things from that time when I was overweight and I had terrible bangs actually like right across my forehead and they were just so cringe and I feel like everything I did was so cringe and I don't know I was so insecure at that time and now that I'm older

kind of like you guys I had a bit like of a glow-up where I'm conventionally attractive now but for some reason I find it so hard to love little me who was

looking really silly and goofy like I could never post those videos and

things the way that you guys do.

But I admire so much that you guys do it because it's so cute and it's so wholesome.

We actually go to seeing school.

Oh, you do?

Yeah. So the show I heard. Yeah. It's called the hot boy. It's cool.

U. Like a whistle, I guess I just want to be able to do that for myself.

Yeah, I guess I just want to be able to do that for myself, so I'm curious, if you guys had any sort of like struggle getting to that point of accepting little you or any tips you guys have because I feel like that's like my last frontier in my self-love

journey is accepting who I used to be.

So thank you guys so much, love you.

Oh wow. Did I struggle? Did I struggle?

I mean, how am I struggling?

In the sense that...

Is that present tense?

In the sense of like owning my childhood and what I was, the thing is I think that looking back on some videos in pictures, not when I was a child, but when I was in middle school were harder for me to look at because you can see

yourself losing your not your childhood but like your innocence in a way that like oh it was okay like I was fat and I was thinking about it but it wasn't like affecting me

until I got to the years of seventh and eighth grade where then it started to be coming I got to look good the girls

are looking cute like we're all putting an effort and I still feel like a flop

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