Hello everyone I'm Lexi Lombard, your host to the Alexi Podcast and I had the worst day. It was just not a good one and it made me evaluate the very

tired conversation of Instagram versus real life this social media versus reality conversation everyone

boils it down to social media is a highlight real do not believe everything

you see take it all with a grain of salt when in reality it's not just hashtag goals or sharing your

pain vulnerability there's this middle ground of neutral content like I got this new

pair of socks from ugg and they're very soft. So I posted it and I was like big yes. And then I also asked for someone's opinion or any of yours whoever was watching for your opinion on a book. I walked for 44 minutes, 44 seconds and 0.44

a second and I burned 222 calories.

So I was like, okay, a little bit of an angelic walk don't we think?

That was it. That's all I had. There's not much indication. They're just random neutral

posts of content.

No one on my Instagram story was like,

damn Lexi's going through it,

but also no one watched my story today

and thought, wow, Lexi Lombard is having an incredible day

because all my content was incredibly neutral.

However, simultaneously today,

I was pacing back and forth below my apartment building,

holding back tears, then letting them pour out.

Three or four hours later, I'm pacing in my living room and then about an hour or two after that trying to go on a long walk to get rid of some energy.

I came back into the apartment. I'm standing in my bedroom, my hands

go tangly, my body temperature raises enormously in a very short amount of time and I know I'm

on the verge of a panic attack, so I step outside on my balcony in the dark

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