Hi, my name is Lewis Howes and welcome to the Daily Motivation Show.

I called my friend and asked for her therapist number. I was like, I need help. I need your therapist.

And like that was like the start. But I lied to my, I mean, I like lied to my therapist. I was taking Adderall. You know, I like, I did want help, but it is really hard to break the cycle. Sure. Yeah. And to break the patterns. And I was lying and she was strong. She was like the mother that I always kind of like needed to anchor me and call me out on my... Tough love. Super tough love. So, you know, I would come in, I'll like Adderald out and I was like buying Adderall. It was just, it was like I got rid of one thing and I was looking for the next.

You said you wanted help but really inside of you, you're like, eh, I still can do this

myself and I'm not going to give everyone the full picture.

I think I did really want help, but when you are so used to attaching yourself to to chaotic things to keep moving forward it like it takes

time well it doesn't feel safe to be in a safe space because you're not you're not familiar

with it don't even know what that. So harmony doesn't feel safe.

Right.

Peace doesn't feel safe.

No.

Because you're like, wait.

What's going to happen?

Something's about to happen.

Yeah.

Where's the chaos? Oh, yeah. You're always looking for it because you're so used to it. It's familiar. So when safe isn't safe and you don't know how to feel calm in harmony, you're always looking to recreate chaos,

whether it be in a relationship,

or whether it be in your own life, or addictions,

or whatever it might be.

Oh, and I was very good at.

If the chaos wasn't there, I will bring it.

Isn't that interesting?

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