Hi, my name is John Kim. I'm a therapist who went through his own

rebirth many years ago and I've been documenting my journey ever since sharing my life

lessons and revelations. I believe in casual or clinical with you instead of at you. I come unrehearsed on purpose

because self-help doesn't have to be so complicated.

So let me describe my current situation first. I'm lying on a tiny uneven bed in a room, just

slightly bigger than a closet.

It is a motel room up in Ida Wild, California.

And I'm here because I'm running a retreat this weekend and I thought, why don't I come up here a couple days early and ride my motorcycle because there's endless windy roads.

It's summertime.

It's going to be gorgeous.

I'll bring my computer.

I'll catch up on podcasting and videos and all that writing.

But our retreat house is taken for this entire week.

It's not open until Saturday. And so I come up here on

Thursday and I thought okay I'm just gonna rent a motel not a big deal, super close to the retreat house. And what I didn't realize was

coming up here and not having access to your own house, the vacation home slash retreat house, where I run all the retreats,

It completely is a different experience so because I'm I brought my motorcycle here even though it is sunny you can't really just jump on it and go I mean you can but the air is actually cold and

It's just a hassle you know the whole helmet you get the bike and so it discourages you to go out and then if you

don't go out then you're in this tiny I mean it feels like a little prison like if I feel like I'm in that

movie misery except there's no crazy stock or holding me hostage and I have nowhere to go and it's not the nice house that

you know has a 360 view with a sauna and jacuzzi and all the stuff. It's just a little motel room.

And I started getting claustrophobic, I started getting angry, I started getting down and kind of mad at myself why did I do this

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