The Firt Show. I think I'm in the midst of trying to accomplish something that I have a good idea I'm a fail at, but I think it'll be worth the effort either way. And it's because I just, I think my family needs it. And I think somebody has to step up and try to be the person to make this happen. And I just feel like it should be me me so my family has been going through a rough time

for a long time it feels like because it's just been we just keep losing family members just one

after another and this all really started a couple years ago when I lost my grandmother and it just

seemed like ever since then I mean mean, it's been three uncles.

There's been a cousin.

And it's like you get a couple of months to grieve and you got to lose somebody else.

And it's been so many people who were prominent in my childhood.

And I think I'm just at that age.

It's like that's just the reality of life, right?

You get to a certain point in life when you just realize that a lot of the people

who played a part in raising you are not going to be here for much longer. However, we have

discussed on the show before mortality rates in different genders and different backgrounds and your

uncles were still young. That's the other part about it.

I mean, I'm losing uncles that are in their 50s and their 60s.

And yeah, it's very young.

And rest and peace to my uncle Alan, this was one I didn't see coming.

And, you know, it's like, it's tough when you get to a point in your life where every time you get a phone call and somebody doesn't sound the happiest you automatically know like you know where it's going and you're just kind of thinking who now you know and sorry it's rough but I was I was just thinking to

myself like there has to be obviously you can't do anything about the inevitable there's nothing

that can be done there but I thought of the last like couple years of

my life and I realize every time that my family is all together in one room, it's for a funeral.

It is always for a funeral. And so many cousins that I grew up with, I don't see them unless

somebody passes away. So many aunts and uncles, I don't see them.

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