Full disclosure, we're going to be getting really deep this episode. And when I say really deep, I actually am referring to myself. So some of you guys know, some of you guys don't know that I actually am in the midst of getting a divorce. So we're going to delve a little bit deeper today into my personal business. I'm here to help everyone who's out there listening. So

in any case, my husband Phil and I had been living separately for a few months. This was last year.

And he was starting up a business in Oklahoma. And I was here back in L.A. One day, Phil actually

told me he wasn't coming back to California. And I was,

you know, obviously I was very perplexed. I asked him, I was like, well, you know, what, like,

what are you saying? Like, why not? And truth be told, he said, he was like, listen, I'm starting

up this cannabis business out in Oklahoma. And, you know, I am going to need to physically be there

to be hands on. So I was, you know, I was like, damn, like that's a lot. Like that, I felt,

you know, I was like, that's really fucked up. Now, he did ask me to help pack up his stuff.

And that's when I guess it started to feel really real to me. And I knew

that I was going to have to tell my son, E Dreese, you know, that he, Phil, you know, his father figure,

like his dad was not going to be home, you know, for a while. And even though it was Phil telling me

this and this was his decision to make,

and I was, you know, I was down with it,

I really kind of felt like, I don't know,

I felt frustrated, I felt really like,

like I was somehow failing.

I realized last November,

I realized that I just was doing so much alone and we really weren't communicating

that well over the phone. Not that we were arguing or anything like that, but our conversations

really were just very business. And I woke up one day and I was like, yo, I can't do this shit no more. Like,

I can't, I can't do this. Like, I'm not happy. We don't, when we talk, we don't sound happy.

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