Just because someone's not in a position where they can lead you spiritually doesn't mean that they

aren't leading in other aspects. Spiritual leadership doesn't always translate into healthy marriage

characteristics that lead to a marriage that feels like a shared partnership.

In Christendom, people are our only business. Parenting, the parent-ness.

You can come in there and think that we're just going to line dance and have a good time.

And you've come head to head with God.

It's been a ghetto time of the year.

We're supposed to be locking in and I feel locked out. Let me tell you something. This is Sarah Jax Roberts. You're listening to the Woman Evolve podcast. And I just, you just dove, I just dove right in on you because this is where I am and this is what I got. But I just wanted to say this. I don't know where my motivation is. It's, I lost it. I wish that I had find my iPhone for my motivation because it's nowhere to be found.

Do you understand what I'm saying? I don't have what I had when I had it. And now it's time for me to have it again and I don't got what I don't have. You understand what I'm saying? And for that

reason, that was very deep. Thank you so much for swimming in those deep waters with me.

I'm just doing the best I can from day to day, which I believe is the best that anyone can do.

There are so many things going going. I was in the shower and I was just praying because I'm

like, Lord, what happened? I was locked in. I was motivated. I had momentum. I had determination.

And now I feel like I'm just getting by

mentally, emotionally, like I'm just putting, and I talked to y'all last week, like I'm reclaiming

my narrative, I'm reclaiming my ability to show up in the way that I can show up, my ability to learn,

to grow and develop, and to own those things. And, you know, that,

that was a process in a re-grounding. And yet I feel myself wanting to get back in the rhythm

of running. I was getting to a point where I could run five miles easy. I ran three miles last

week. I ran a mile earlier this week.

I was almost a mile in today, and I said, forget it.

Why?

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