When you get that call had you known the context the behind the scenes that unhealthy culture

Honestly, do you think you would have made a different decision?

I think I think I can say this

I read the UK dad was the biggest influence on your career

And then I read a separate quote saying that sometimes I hated him

You know my dad was tough man pushed me very hard in the football front

And it got probably a bit too much

The fear of failure was a huge drive and false thought it made me why I was and gave me the career I got in the end

Chelsea fans will be listening to this because they want to get your opinion on what's just happened

Because since you've left we've not really heard from you

I came back here because this was an opportunity to come to Chelsea a club close to my heart

But I could see in training the level wasn't enough

The size of the squad with players that will test you and question you

Questioning you

And then Chelsea it spends more money than anyone's ever spent in a window

It seemed like chaos could see that the players were ready for the season to finish

But low standards are a symptom of something further upstream

And that's happened you know we didn't get the results or wanted

And I know a lot of the reasons why like what so

One moment occurred in your life that really tested you at a much deeper level

The passing of your mother and while you were playing at the very very highest level

I was a mummy's boy

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