Hey everybody. Welcome back to another episode of Dying Laughing. This week we're revisiting an old

episode. It's a re-release from the grief survival guide series when I recorded in the thick of it.

This is when I was trying to make sense of life after losing both of my parents and honestly

trying to find anything that felt like comfort. This episode is called Fear in Loafing, how grief consumes you.

And yes, the loafing part is literal. I was eating entire loaves of bread like they were some

sort of emotional life rafts. I talked about the ways I was coping with food, alcohol, distractions,

all the numbing tools we grab when grief gets too big to carry. I also talk about

that deep gnawing fear that shows up after loss, the kind that makes you question everything,

your purpose, your motivation, your identity. I felt completely lost, unmotivated, like my spark

had been swallowed. But underneath all of that indulgence and loss, something else was

happening. There was this kind of emotional excavation that only comes with grief, like a

digging down to what's real. And maybe grief isn't just agony. Maybe it's actual transformation.

Because once that dust settles, you start to see the gifts, grief hides behind. The perspective,

the compassion, the hunger to live again. So grab a snack, preferably something extremely carby.

I love yonokey. I love pizza. I love pasta. Take a walk and let's talk about fear, food,

and the messy, beautiful cost of trying to comfort

yourself through loss.

Hope you guys enjoy it.

Thank you so much.

It's another grief survival guide episode. I know it's been a couple weeks. I think it has, I honestly don't know what day it is. That's how I feel lately. Just time is lost on me. This is fear and loafing.ing get it like fear and loathing but it's a loafing because of how i've felt in this stage of the process i feel lost days i feel unmotivated but I'm still doing a lot. And I honestly attribute that to being

with my family, which you may hear screaming in the background bloody murder. So I'm not even

going to apologize for it because I know you guys are also going through the same thing,

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