Hello everyone. I'm Lexi Lombard, your host to the at Lexi podcast and thank you for tuning in to another episode.

She is D-A-R-K right now.

I just sent a voice message to my friend.

I was telling her, I was like,

personal service announcement.

She's dark these days.

I'm doing not great on a personal note. I'm going through it, but it's fine because I have faith. Here's the thing, here's the thing. I have faith that I can get through anything I'm going to nothing. I'm going to

Nothing can stop me. I'm all the way up. Nothing can stop me. I'm trying my best is what it should be edited too. But here's the thing.

Even though I won't let anything stop me, I don't want anything more. I don't want any more. I don't want any more baggage. I don't want

any more trauma. Like I need a break and when it rains it pours and I've had so many good years. I really have had a lot of good years

And I'd like another one I really thought 2021 was gonna be that for me. I mean I thought 2020 was gonna be that for me. I mean I thought 20 was going to be that for me.

But I really am desperately praying to the good above. Help me out. Give me a break. I cannot, here's the thing I want to say I can't handle anymore, but I can. I don't want to handle anymore. I want to be able to get out of this water

treading and I want to swim to a new location and I can tread for the rest of my life if I have to but do I want to absolutely not

Yeah, I hate I hate this face I'm in this period of life that I'm in. I'm mad at it. I got a lot of anger inside of me. Too much anger. And I used to not have an angry bone in my body, but I am so angry these days at everything. Myself, those around me, things I can't control, things I can control. I think I'm most angry at myself and things that I can control. They say you either take your anger out on others

or yourself and I'm definitely a myself kind of person. But God, sometimes wouldn't it be great just get it out on others, but the thing is, God, sometimes wouldn't it be great,

just get it out on others, but the thing is,

it doesn't really work that way, it doesn't really,

it's not great advice.

So I'm not advising it, I'm just entertaining the idea,

okay?

Also, I normally have a bit of a setup.

There's a siren.

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