Every season for where should we begin, I receive thousands of applicants.

And one of the most frustrating things is that I'm only going to be able to see 10 couples.

And I've been grappling with this.

How can I connect with more of you?

There are so many powerful questions, so many pain points that I would like to be able

to at least address with you even if shortly.

So this series is going to be different.

It's you calling me with a very precise question, with your pain point, me calling you back

and together we think out loud.

And we go from where should we begin to where can you start?

Hi Esther, I'm finishing 40, I turned 40 in about six months.

And to this day I've never had a relationship, that's gone beyond four or five months.

At first, like in my 20s, 30s, I thought this is cool, just kind of drifting through

life, coasting about, it's all good.

But lately, over the last few years, it's really begun to concern me, especially as I

begin to feel that I actually want a relationship.

Three or four months into the relationship, whatever, I just hit this wall, I get anxious,

I begin to withdraw, she will basically call me out at some point and eventually the

relationship will just end because I just can't communicate what is on and I'm going

through, I don't know what's making me anxious.

I don't know what to do, why can't I get past this point of a relationship and it's

really upsetting to me.

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