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Morning everybody, I'm Julie and I'm not garlic. Now I have not looked so scary for the very

first time I'll walk the engine.

Um, Jerry, thank you so much for asking me to be here today. I am honored and I am humbled.

There was definitely a time in my life when nobody asked me to be anywhere. Um, and the

definitely wasn't anybody that wanted to hear what I had to say. Um, by the grace of God,

and through these rooms, um, truly grateful to be here today. And this is my story from

my perspective as it is today. Um, and, um, anyways, I was born in 1970 in Anderson, Indiana.

I was the second child born to Peter and Gene Jennings. They lost the first one. Um,

and we stayed in Anderson for almost years. And, uh, right before we moved, my little brother

was born. Um, he was named after my father. This is sure that had passed away. He was named

after my mother. Um, and I was named after my grandmother. And, um, I've got to tell you

from, um, as far back as I can remember, even from the stories that I've been told, I

was born in nasty to your old. And my mom says, I stayed that way until I was well into

my thirties. Um, for as long as I can remember, um, I was filled with fear. Fear of not being

good enough, um, fear that I would never measure up to the sister that wasn't fear that, um,

the brother, the boy, would be loved more than I was, um, fear of never fitting in. And,

um, just fear of everything. And I displayed that fear in anger and rage. I was the meanest

child ever. And if he didn't believe me, I'd show you. Um, I would do whatever it took

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