Hi, friends. Welcome to another episode of That Sounds Fun. I'm your host, Annie F. Downs. I'm really happy to be here with you today. Happy Monday. We have got a great show in store. Hey, don't forget there are still a few days left to send us questions for the prayer Q&A.

Wow, the one job already sent actually have reshaped the series and I'm so thankful we are changing how this thing goes because of the questions you'll have.

So remember that that is all going to be in April. So we need your questions now because we are getting those gathered up.

The links are in the show notes below. We are so looking forward to talking through a bunch of your questions that you're asking.

And today on the show I get to talk to my friend in yours, man, Disa, you remember her from the last time she joined us on episode 171. It's a great one. You should go back to listen to or you may have fallen love with her like I did on season five of American Idol.

Man, I'm so so glad to get to follow up with her and here again how she is doing. What she's been learning and creating. She shares it so honestly and beautifully in her new book that came out this month.

Called out of the dark my journey through the shadows to find God's joy. I love spending time with friends who will get real with us and man, Disa is a generous truth teller about her battle with depression.

How to fight for joy and where she is today. This one means so much to me and I think it will to you to. So here's a really honest conversation with my friend, Mandisa.

So for our friends who already have out of the dark and our friends who are going to get it you write about on site in the book. Yeah, me too. I loved on site.

I did too. Yeah, I want to talk about it. One of the things they talk about is your life change in two degrees. Do you remember them saying that to you.

And so I think a lot about what if we could actually see the two degree shift. So good. Do you feel like you're seeing it all after doing the amount of work you've done on your own mental health. Do you feel like there's a two degree shift?

I wish I want to say yes. I don't I don't but I think that's the thing about two degrees that you don't notice it. So maybe when I look back a few years from now I'll see it but I don't right now I feel like I'm still in the mud.

I'm trying to do every day. Yeah, when you think about your and you write about this but I also said to you before we started if we talk about anything you don't want to talk about just say just pass or I don't know say something like sounds terrible and I will be buying the next question.

When you think about your anxiety, your depression. Do you scale every day.

Today's a 10 I can't get out of bed. I can't do it. No, I'm honestly I don't think about it, which is part of the problem. I just numb out my favorite thing to do is to right now I'm rewatching lost like I've never watched it.

I just love escaping. And so I think it would be healthy of me to scale it. I think the big moments I'm starting to realize I need to take a look at how I'm feeling about these things a friend of mine told me yesterday her grandfather passed and she was talking about her grandmother and how she's never seen her cry out of sabbous that she's seen her cry out of just gratefulness to God.

She said she's so holy and I just remember thinking yeah, that's true. I love that she's got to say I'm learning I actually need to cry about these things. It is holy to feel what I'm feeling and not to just shove it down and ignore it.

So I probably need to do more of a how I'm in feeling today. If I don't want to get out of bed, I just don't get out of bed.

Yeah, I don't take a mental, you know, checklist of how I'm feeling. Yeah, the reason I ask is my brain, especially when it comes to how I think about my body, how I feel about my physical health.

Most days I have to say if 10 is I can't care at all today. I have zero care and bring on the Oreos and zero is like I am motivated to be on this planet until I'm 170.

So I will write. So most days I have to go like where are you Annie? That's so good. But so my the reason I bring that up is I wanted to know where you are today.

Well, now that we're thinking through it, you're like I wish you wouldn't have asked. No, I love this. I remember this with you last time too.

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