This is Annie Grace and you're listening to this naked mind podcast where without judgment,

pain or rules, we explore the role of alcohol in our lives and culture.

Hi, this is Annie Grace and I'm answering readers questions and today is a cool question because it's

basically how did I come up with the theory about the unconscious conditioning being the key to

kind of releasing you from emotional and psychological dependence on alcohol and to tell you how I came up with

the theory I sort of have to tell a bit of my own story which is cool. So I was in this hugely successful

international marketing career. I was in charge of 28 countries. I was flying all over the world. I

did 22 countries in a span of two years. I was often on international trips which were first class

and just a hugely kind of boozy culture. So I was drinking a lot on the airplanes in the airplane

lounges at the networking events, at the business dinners, at the corporate dinners and this went on

for quite a long time and then I found myself. There was one moment where we were over in the UK and

it was me and my husband and it was a weekend and we'd taken our two kids and I had to hang over from

the night before so I was feeling like crap so I stuffed two big beers in my bag and we were taking

our kids to London I and I you know we're about to go up on the London I and I was like okay I want

to have a beer because it made me feel better and I really felt like I just needed it and needed the

relief and I pulled this beer out and I accidentally dropped it and it was this huge can of beer and

it started spraying all over my kids who were about I think they were three and five at the time

and so they were drenched in beer and it was funny but not funny funny but gut-wrenching

stomach-dropping I feel like I want to puke because this is so horrible and embarrassing and I

just drenched my kids in beer and why at 10 in the morning do I think it's a good idea to have

a few beers before we go get on the London I why can't I just hang out with my children and

what is this what is what is happening to me and I felt very very pained in that moment and I

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