This is Annie Grace and you're listening to this naked mind podcast where without

judgment, pain or rules, we explore the role of alcohol in our lives and culture.

Hi this is Annie Grace and welcome to this naked mind podcast. Today I'm here with

a Neek and the Neek has a really special story and it's very close to me

because she reached out to me. What was it? Six months ago, seven months ago and

we started talking and struck up a friendship and it's just been really

awesome. So thank you so much for joining and sharing your story. Well thank

you for having me and this is so exciting because I guess we're gonna talk

about the story but I really really really am excited to be there doing this

with you today. Oh it's so awesome. So why don't you just sort of start at the

beginning? Like what was your life like when you were drinking you know just

give us typical day in the life? Well I was an entrepreneur. I was in the

retail business so I was running three shops and that was really stressful. So I

was you know during the day I was this busy woman trying to get things going

and everything was fine. I had friends telling me oh my god you are a

business woman now and stuff like that but then I would have days or she

does say evening so nights when I would go out with friends and I would have a

drink or 12 and then you know put myself in situations well first in situations

that were embarrassing or situations that were even dangerous you know drunk

driving or doing stuff that made me feel like not happy to say the least

the next morning so I was in that situation of really fighting the shame

around what I was doing and the fact that I was living this double life. And so

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