Welcome to episode four of the Run Selfie Repeat Podcast, where we talk about life with a side of running.

My name is Kelly Roberts, and today I want to talk about something that wreaks havoc on my life to this day.

The fear of failure.

Ooh, yeah. Just... day the fear of failure who yeah just just saying it out loud kind of spikes my heart rate a little bit

which is insane because i'm one of those people who like actually believes that there's no such thing as

failing i think it will make this point at the

end, I think that if you go for something 100% without regrets, there is no way in hell you can

fail. And yet still, a fear of failure freaks me out. And just totally and completely throws me for a loop. So let's talk about it.

The fear of failure is just, it's one of those things that is both terrifying and disorienting.

And it wasn't until I ran my very first marathon that I kind of realized just how important it is to push myself

to do the things that I, one, don't think that I'm capable of, and two, that I actually think

are impossible. Because I think sometimes I know I at least have a habit of really defining what

I can and cannot do. And in all my life, I kind of shied away

from the things that I wasn't very good at. And with running, like, I am not a very good runner.

And people always try to like, be like, don't say that about yourself, which I get. And I think

that's fine. But you guys, this is true. I am not very good at this.

It is very, very, very hard for me every single step of the way. And yes, there are some

amazing runs that I get to like be with really fun people and I have a ball. But I would say a vast

majority of them end in tears or they end with me questioning

why I'm doing this. Like I keep making this joke that I'm in purgatory because I wasn't this

athletic person. You know, athleticism is not a word I would use to describe myself despite the fact

that today I willingly run marathons.

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