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Contrary to most other size, you may have heard, on Monocycle, the one that I just executed was actually a sigh of relief.

Yesterday, I found myself leaving my office, and our digital director was downstairs, and she asked me how I was doing, and I looked her and I smiled and I was like my workload is so manageable right now and she said to me I don't think I've ever heard you say that and I thought about it for a minute afterward and it's true I don't think I've ever actually said something positive about work but, here's where it gets a little bit masochistic. So I'm thinking through how comfortable and pleasant I feel right now.

I had a good doctor's appointment last weekend.

I have another one today.

All signs point to one day you will get pregnant, so no sweat.

And that feels good.

And as I'm going through this and I'm thinking that everything seems to be falling into place,

I'm realizing that it doesn't feel natural to me.

I'm looking back at some of the bouts of severe, severe manic anxiety turned into depression

that I experienced in July and before that in June and before that in April and really

terribly in February.

And I'm looking back almost nostalgically when I first started getting really, really bad anxiety attacks about work, I'm talking like,

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