Good morning. Welcome back to Monocicle. I've been up since about 719, and the minute I opened my eyes, my heart felt like it was beating out of my body.

And my room is really cold because my husband likes to sleep with the air conditioner on.

But for whatever reason, I'm still covered in sweats.

Not as in sweatpants and sweatshirts by champion, aka Vetmont.

Sweats like glands in my body are producing salty water.

And I'm thinking to myself, geez Leandra, like of all the times in the world to feel like this,

really, July? Let loose and relax month? I mean, I just spent a beautiful weekend in the

Hamptons with my family and my husband and granted the sun didn't come out, but still we had a

great time. I didn't have to mother myself because my mom was mothering me. And I ate a lot of good food.

I relaxed.

And yet, here I am.

I bring up let loose and relax because that's the theme of the month on man-repeller.

And so every week this month, I'm assigning myself a different task on how to let loose and relax.

Last week, my task was to mother myself.

And if I'm being very honest, I think I probably failed miserably at that.

You know, the first couple days went okay.

Every time I'd get a little bit anxious, I would close my eyes and imagine that I was my

own daughter and try to give myself the advice that I would give my daughter if I saw her like this.

I know that if I saw my daughter like this, I'd really hurt, I'd really feel for her. And I would,

I'd sit her down and I would say, I want you to make a list of all the things that you have to do today, that you must do today. And after you make that

list, I want you to show it to me. And then we're going to look at it together and we're going to

decide, do these things actually have to be done today? That way I would learn the way that she was

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