I'm Natalie Lou and you're listening to the baggage reclaim sessions.

Hello hello.

How are you doing?

Today I want to talk to you about something

that has been on my mind for some time

and I've actually wanted to talk about it for a long time and then this week has really posed the perfect opportunity

And really what got me started with this is that

earlier on this week I watched the news for the first time in a long time. It wasn't intentional. We had switched over in search of something else and then in an answer that there was going to be a news conference.

And my curiosity got the better of me because I had a feeling that it would be a good idea for me to watch it.

Not because I am massively into the subject of the person,

not because I am massively into the subject or the person,

not because I actually even want to at the moment stay abreast of politics because

actually I find the news rather exhausting and as I mentioned on the last episode, I have really whittled down my social media and news

consumption for the sake of my health and keeping it you know a good sense of

well being over the last well. Anyway I'm not going to name

names because if you live here in England then you know exactly which press

conference I am referring to and as I watched this past conference, I noticed that I could feel these sensations in my body, funny feeling in my chest, a little bit in my head, just mixed

with this sort of, not confusion confusion just this sort of sense of something's really off here and at first I thought oh it's because you're watching the news for the first time in ages, and I'm sure that that played a factor because, you know, I was basically listening to something that, in essence, I didn't really need to listen to, but some little flashes of things I had forgotten about for quite some time were also occurring memories and I realized that the reason why I was feeling the way

that I was is because I was being gaslighted by somebody who was sitting there at a press conference,

repeatedly explaining themselves but also showing absolutely no empathy and also making

at like it was everybody else's problem not theirs you know one of those sort of I'm

sorry you feel that way my behavior what happened isn't problem, it's just your feelings about it or

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