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This is perhaps one of the oddest experiences I've had recording the podcast. I am sitting

in a rental car outside of the rehab center here at the University of Utah and in the 60 seconds

that it took me to set up my computer and all of that here in the car. It went from sunny to rainy

to snowing and I'm here obviously to visit my brother-in-law and after his accident and

it's just sort of a time vortex being here. I talked about this a little bit on stories but I

think there is something so unique about the experience of having family in the hospital

for an extended period of time because it's almost set on Instagram. It's almost like

severance where it's like there's a world inside the hospital and a world outside the hospital

and because your person is in there, well it's actually not like severance because those are

two totally separate things. Instead it's that a part of your mind is there and and so immersed

in this world of the hospital. We've been here for two days. So what I'm experiencing is a teeny

tiny fraction of what my husband's families have already been going through for the last month

and so many other families have gone through for years where you get home at night and you're still

thinking about the things that you forgot at the hospital and you wake up and you're thinking

about that and then I knew I had some work to do but I couldn't... I knew I was going to record

this podcast today but I knew there was other stuff I was supposed to do and I could not for the

life of me remember. It was like I had left everything on my metaphorical desk in New York

and I couldn't... I'd entered this whole other world here and I just couldn't even remember

what was going on there. So I... But I've been anchoring myself with this phrase, oh wait,

I don't even think I finished why this setup particularly is weird. There is this complex, medical

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