Hmm, where do we even begin? Hi, everybody. Welcome to the Run Selfie Repeat Podcast, where we talk about life with the side of running. My name's Kelly Roberts. And today, well, first of all, the Run Selfie Repeat podcast is now going to be coming out every single Friday.

I've been doing this loosey-goosey thing, and you guys have been so great.

But we need structure.

So every Friday, there will be a new episode of the podcast, which is exciting.

But today, this episode, this is something that is

popping up a lot in my life this week. And I can't not acknowledge it because I don't think

I've ever had to articulate this before, even though I've found myself having this conversation

like three times in three days, which is bizarre. But I want to talk about the

joy and loss. And stay with me because for me, it's still a triggering thing to say and hear.

And I'll get into why and what I mean in a minute. But before I do a disclaimer, this is a

heavy episode. I don't know if there will be tears, but I'm leaning

hard into grief on this one. So I don't know, sometimes when I'm trying to survive and keep

everything in my life afloat, like I have to turn off and avoid my, like just anything that's like

going to just throw me into the rabbit hole when I'm feeling vulnerable. So just a heads up,

I know how hard it is.

And before we really get into it, a quick shout out to the Squarespace, to the Squarespace,

to Squarespace for sponsoring this episode. A Squarespace, for those of you don't know,

is the website hosting platform that makes it possible for anyone from every day,

not tech savvy humans like me, to the Times Up movement. Did you know that they use Squarespace

to host their site? I know, it's kind of groovy. My favorite thing to do is actually to

code source pages, something I learned because I have a podcast on Squarespace.

But, so now I like to go, I like to go to different websites and see who hosts their

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