Lemonara.

I had eating disorders for a good portion of my life about 12 years

you know anorexia bulimia binge eating disorder

they just ruled me for a long portion of my life.

They ruled me.

I think that's the best for years at this point and when I say eating disorder free I mean I consider myself

recovered this is kind of a controversial statement in the eating disorder community.

They really like to use the word like recovery.

Like we're always in recovery from an eating disorder.

We're never recovered, we're always in recovery because it's something we always have to maintain

and work on.

And I find that language so frustrating, unhelpful, unmotivating, it just it kind of makes

me angry. If you're struggling with an eating disorder and you hear, oh, you're going to always have to be working on this for the rest of your life, that seems like I felt hopeless when people were using that kind of language.

So I feel it is important because it is true to let you guys know that I'm

recovered. I'm hopeful that that's in some

sense of hope if you're struggling right now,

that you can be recovered.

And what I may be recovered is that I have not

binged, purged, restricted, counted a calorie, exercised in a disordered

way, just recovered and it feels great and I don't think about it. I don't think about food at all. I completely eat whatever I want whenever I want no food rules. It's really, I can't believe it and I'm and I'm so grateful for it and I've got some tools and some

strategies that worked for me that I would like to share with you guys today. I did a college tour as the book was my book I'm glad my

mom died was coming out and I at a lot of these colleges young women and men would

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