Billy (mother fucking) Strings! - BILLY STRINGS STARTS AROUND 27 MINUTES IN... Dopey Meditation! Spotify Reviews! Premature ejaculation! Fentanyl! Dave introduces Billy Strings and jokes about being “professional” with matcha, lights, and cameras Billy talks about early Christmas, gifts, his 15-year-old daughter reviewing matcha Why he came on Dopey: addiction shaped his life; wants to help people by telling his story Talks about losing his mom recently and wanting to live in truth Growing up with addiction: dad died of heroin overdose when Billy was two Parents smoked crack; house shot up; meth enters the park scene in Michigan Living in trailer parks, food insecurity, powdered milk, church food boxes House becoming chaotic: glued art to walls, “collage house,” people coming in and out Started smoking weed at 8; acid and mushrooms with mom; first time doing acid—mom tested it first First time meth: smoked it with mom and a handyman using a modified lightbulb Four-day awake binges, playing guitar nonstop Being a teenager, couch surfing, leaving home at 13, dropping out of school First time smoking crack; immediate compulsive craving; dreams about crack Stories about pregnant woman smoking crack, meth labs, people going to prison Parents' addiction cycles, “skirting the truth,” shielding family from shame When his parents got clean then slipped back Billy buying his parents a house; heartbreak when he learned they were using again Mom died from methamphetamine intoxication; Billy didn’t know she was using Dad admits he was using too while heart is functioning at ~13% Processing grief, anger, acceptance, reading mom’s poems, spirituality Al-Anon via Trey Anastasio; hearing others talk about losing loved ones Talks about his son, wanting to break generational cycle Talks about doing heroin once, puking all night, feeling "the Grim Reaper saw me" Quit drinking ~9 years ago after throwing up and missing gigs Smoking weed constantly; thinking about quitting Touring, panic attacks, therapy, being molested as a child Playing arenas, trying to enjoy success, still driven by fear of losing it Wanting to help others: maybe opening a rehab someday Talks about music influences, parents' music, Beatles backwards records, bluegrass saving him Origin Story behind the name “Billy Strings”! Reads and discusses his mom’s poetry; wants to turn them into songs Talks Sopranos, The Wire, Doc Watson, Dead shows, Trey, bluegrass festivals Closes with reflection on joy, grief, and living “freakishly” like his mom