Matria is concerned. Hello and this is

Hello and welcome to Matelia is confused

This is Mattelia and this is a solo episode

I haven't done one in a while. The last one I did was on January 1st and I think it's time. It's time for a number of reasons actually.

To start, I know in my last introduction last week I spoke of my dog Billy, who was sick and dying at the time, but she has now passed away and it was very sad as it always is

very sad as it always is when a pet dies unless you have no fucking soul in which case

Why do you have a pet because pets are for people with souls?

And yeah, it was hard man.

It was just it was hard.

It was and the first thing I'll say is that I I mean I post so much of my social media presence is in existence because I have these two dogs that I love so much. My younger one is Charlie Billy was 17. So she's

moved on to greener pastures but when she did die I posted about it on Instagram and I and I fucking cannot believe

how nice people were.

I felt like I needed to post about it's not really like me to do that to post about something very personal or personal at all. I don't I don't use those platforms to be to talk about my

personal life or to show personal I guess online I don't know it just it seems silly I guess

I guess in a way. And anytime I see someone do it, I generally want to vomit, but dogs are different and I think a loss is different.

I feel differently when it's about loss but in this case

Specifically about this I didn't want people to ask me where Billy was I didn't want people to ask me where Billy was. I didn't want the slow stream of

where's Billy. I noticed she's not in your videos anymore. So I wanted to just like

announce it so I didn't have to get the

fucking slow drip constant unexpected reminders of this very sad thing.

But what I didn't anticipate of this very sad thing.

But what I didn't anticipate was how fucking nice.

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