As the conversation that started with you finding peanut butter cup wrapper that I had

left out, yeah I mean it wasn't like specifically about the wrapper just like a lot of times

I think just like don't throw stuff away and sometimes I understand it but sometimes

it really confuses me because why?

This is body's producer Hannah Harris Green speaking with her partner Matthew.

I know it's really hard for people who are not me to understand why it's so hard like

why why doesn't she just do this why doesn't she just do that and I'm like it's literally

because it just leaves my mind I just don't remember.

This issue of Hannah just forgetting to throw things out put stuff away it comes up a lot.

It's actually been a struggle for much of her life.

There's this idea that if you work hard enough at something you'll get better at it.

But what happens when you seem to be struggling more than the people around you like there's

something just out of your sight that keeps tripping you up.

Hannah had always thought that there were certain areas of her life that she was just really

bad at but recently she's realized it's more complicated than that.

She's been searching for the snag that's tripping her up untangling it and asking herself.

How do you balance the desire to grow and improve with the desire to accept yourself

as you are?

From KCRW this is bodies, I'm Allison Beringer.

I think a fundamental part of who I am is that I messy and I want the good things about

me to matter more than that to you.

They do.

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