Hello again, beautiful, beautiful beings, and welcome back to another expand podcast episode with yours truly

Elizabeth April. So today I want to talk about a, I guess a diagnosis, but it's not my own. And before I kind of dive into just my

thoughts and feelings about this, I want to first say that I'm not a psychologist. I do not have

the rights to really even be talking about this, but I also think it's really important

to bring things up from a spiritual perspective. So what I want to talk about today is something called

D.D. or dissociative identity disorder. Now, the other kind of less eloquent name for it would be split personality.

I remember in, I think it was in high school where we were made to read the Sible Book

and how this one girl had all of these different split personalities

and how different they were. And immediately it made sense to me that this is a defense mechanism

that she did based on years and years of abuse. For a very long time, I had a

feeling like I had aspects of this. And yes, even though I have experiences of sexual abuse in

childhood, it was never so bad that I literally split myself to deal with it. And I guess I can't say

that I know that for a fact, but my different parts are not necessarily related to that. At least I can't

see that they are. But I'm still unpacking this myself. For me, I have many distinctive

parts, but I have two parts in particular. One part being Elizabeth April and one part being

my human. And I'm not saying that Elizabeth April is not my human, but it is kind of this

amalgamation of all of the teachers that I've ever been throughout all of my lifetimes. In a sense,

Elizabeth April is the outward facing, is the teacher, or the spiritualist,

and Elizabeth, the human, is really just that, is really just a human,

full of emotions and experiences and desires and connections and what have you.

So, I just feel like I've been torn.

Now, not to mention I have Hira,

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