Literally what the fuck is being in your 20s?

When I look at this last month, specifically Venus retrograde, we had Venus retrograde,

we had Mercury retrograde, and whether you believe in astrology and the effect that the

planets have on you or not, like you cannot deny the collective shadows we have been facing over the last, I don't know, month and a half,

two months. Everybody in my life, I look at them and it's like whatever the shadow was

that they were avoiding, that was holding them back from their most vibrant self was shot to the surface and uncovered

in such a rogue and rude way and it's like you can't ignore it anymore you can't ignore this

fucking shadow in front of you and i feel like that's what being in my 20s has felt like.

What is up, guys?

I am Kayla Rose, your host of Skinny Dipping, and welcome back.

Today we're in my backyard if you're watching the video on Spotify.

First of all, I just want to thank you guys for being so patient.

I know I took a couple weeks off and I always miss you guys, but sometimes I have this blockage.

And I've been confronting so many blockages within myself.

I think as somebody who used to be, quote unquote, a gifted child growing growing up there was a lot of pressure and expectations around my productivity and in that I think in the last five years in my early 20s right

I just turned 26 on March 22nd had the craziest time with my best friends and had the hugest come down from it because

I was filled with all this joy, all this play. And then I returned to my life and I was like,

whoa, what does bring me joy? And just tapping into my current situation and being like,

what in my day to day life brings me joy?

And honestly grieving the fact that the things that used to bring me joy and used to work for me to uplift my spirits may be shifting and they may be changing.

And I may be needing to uncover what it is that I truly desire and what I truly want.

And I just don't fucking know what I want.

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