The following talk was given at the Insight Meditation Center in Redwood City, California.

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Okay.

So, I'm not a temperamentally patient person.

That's not my part of me, you know.

And when I'm doing something I don't like the dishes.

It's not a dignified scene.

Ticknathand would not be impressed how I wash dishes.

Someone said to me, you wash dishes like Poseidon in a bad mood. That's the god of sea and storms.

But in other ways, I'm patient.

For example, I'm very patient with pain, very patient with my grief.

I don't ask it to crystallize into meaning before it's ready.

And sometimes we're in too much of a rush and we prematurely impose some order on pain.

And that does healing a kind of disservice.

And so I'm comfortable not knowing what grief means, not knowing what it entails,

not knowing what it asks of me, not knowing how it will change me.

Leonard Cohen, I managed to get Anni DeFranco and Bob Dylan in the guided.

Here's Leonard.

I heard the soul unfolds in the chambers of this longing

as the bitter liquor sweetens in the amber cup.

So all this is to say,'m still finding my ground after November 5th.

And I'm in no rush to find hope, although I know I will.

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