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Alright, hitting the day 3 complete in the can and day 3, just building in the day 4. It's hitting the candy stage.

I've done this so many fucking times that you still forget the candy stage.

And I don't even think it's a smoking thing. I mean the smoking thing you can give you and you just eat just to do something with your hands.

But the sweets and the candy is not something that you know I go full bore on except it's the alcohol. I think the amount of sugar I get from alcohol.

Keep in mind people I eat generally for the last many years or decade or however long.

Average between probably 12 and 20 drinks in a general evening.

So when all of a sudden you're going with two measured drinks, airplane bottle measured your body's going wait where's the fucking sugar?

I need sugar so so yeah I go to ace hardware it's I go to ace hardware store for bottled water the big bottles of sparkling bottles and candy.

And not often the water because those big bottles at five gallons last a long time with me.

So oftentimes I will go into ace hardware because they have the jelly belly the offshoot like the liquor shit and those little raspberry blackberries the good ones with the small nuggets not the big nuggets.

Fucking candy so they have candy corn that they don't sell anywhere.

But they have this the packets of candy.

Like the 29 little pack guys like gourmet candy but it makes you feel like this isn't shitty for me.

It's 229 for like two ounces.

But it's like a handful it's like it's a loose handful of can't it's not like a like a the big.

A rustle stover huge of sockets peanuts.

But if they sold circus peanuts it would be about seven which is what you want.

Yeah I want a little bit of really good but I've just been fucking mowing it out here.

Yeah the fat stage is brutal and the first I remember when I quit for a year I did it where I just I did nothing but sit and drink and do Xanax on a couch in a fog literally for two months.

And yeah I quit smoking and I had no idea because I never changed out of sweatpants.

So I didn't know that I had fucking ballooned up because I don't have mirrors in my house except to brush my teeth in my teeth have been ballooned up for so many fucking years giant fuck it by grew into my teeth is what I did and I wore fuck yeah I forget I indy was my first gig and I wore overalls.

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